The past couple of months have been difficult. I’ve felt that I could relate to the Scripture that says that we are troubled on every side, perplexed, and cast down (2 Corinthians 4:8-9). I have been pressed hard from every side and in almost every aspect of life. Yet, regardless of all the difficult circumstances on the outside, the inward battles have been the most difficult for me.
It is the struggles inside my heart that have really made me broken – the struggle that comes from having a dream inside your heart, which cannot be realized yet; the promises and desires that your heart long for, but there is nothing you can do but wait for its fulfillment. I have cried many tears, knowing that even if I could find the words to describe what I felt, no-one would really truly understand the heartache involved, simply because it is so very personal.
I have wrestled many times, telling the Lord that the things I desire is GOOD. It’s a dream that will, by His grace, make a difference in other people’s lives; desires that are counted as blessings in His Word; and promises which are reflected in Scripture.
These dreams, desires and promises have still not been fulfilled, but I am comforted and encouraged through God’s Word. I am repeatedly reminding myself of what I have found:
“For the LORD God is a sun and shield: the LORD will give grace and glory: no good thing will He withhold from them that walk uprightly.” ~ Psalm 84:11
I believe that God’s indescribable love will withhold NO GOOD THING from me. (Romans 8:32) If something is withheld at this present moment, I must conclude that if I had it now, it would not be good for me.
I firmly believe that there is a “perfect timing” for everything. (Ecclesiastes 3:1-8) Yet, I am the first one to confess that waiting for the “perfect time” is extremely difficult, especially if the thing you are waiting for is so deeply rooted in your heart that life feels empty without it. The Bible isn’t silent about this either:
“Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but when the desire cometh, it is a tree of life.” ~ Proverbs 13:12
“The Lord is not slack concerning His promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.” ~ 2 Peter 3:9
Our loving Lord sees the bigger picture and all of the things that can possibly have an influence on our dreams and desires. During the times when you are waiting, deeply longing for the fulfillment of some GOOD thing, keep reminding yourself of His Goodness. Keep reminding yourself that He will not make you wait one second longer than what He knows is necessary.
I have cried many tears as I listened to the song Blessings by Laura Story, mostly because I know it is true – we go through difficult times of “unanswered” prayers and waiting for His redemption of our circumstances, but what He really wants is for us to see Him and feel His comforting love through it all. If a child never fell and got hurt, he would never know that exact kind of comfort, care and love that his parents can show when he’s hurting. Likewise, we can experience a very special comfort and nearness with our Lord when we hurt.
My prayer is that you will also be encouraged, as I’ve been, through this Scripture. It takes constant reminding, because I am so quick to doubt. Many times, I don’t even know what to pray anymore, because of the overwhelming sense of emptiness I feel when I think of these desires. Then I am reminded of a parable that Jesus told (Luke 18:1-8 below), and I once again lay my heart bare before Him.
Jesus loves you, and He desires the best for all His creation – including you.
Hold on. Keep the faith. Keep praying. Remind yourself of the Truth (His Word). One day you will look back and know that it was His faithful, all-knowing love that kept you waiting and finally brought fulfillment in a more perfect way than you could ever imagine.
Blessings to you!
And He spake a parable unto them to this end, that men ought always to pray, and not to faint; Saying, “There was in a city a judge, which feared not God, neither regarded man: And there was a widow in that city; and she came unto him, saying, “Avenge me of mine adversary.” And he would not for a while: but afterward he said within himself, ‘Though I fear not God, nor regard man; Yet because this widow troubleth me, I will avenge her, lest by her continual coming she weary me.’ ” And the Lord said, “Hear what the unjust judge saith. And shall not God avenge his own elect, which cry day and night unto him, though he bear long with them? I tell you that he will avenge them speedily. Nevertheless when the Son of man cometh, shall He find faith [persevering in prayer] on the earth?”
Please feel free to leave comments with Scriptures that have encouraged you during difficult [waiting] times.